my cousin Dustin, my twin everyone said, he died January 17 2012, sometime very early a.m.
his heart gave up, they called it, Atherosclerosis, but there are still three groups of it so we
still have to wait for more tests. two days later we almost lost cat that granny gave us she now gurgles a meow and a messed ear.
worst part auntie and her other hellish son are now living here
cause no one will rent to them cause of his sloppiness, and the fact he hides it and says it
clean in the morning we always wake up to a destroyed kitchen this morning i stepped in a
sludge pool of powdered neste and melted freezies he claims always i dont remember doing
that, then lets not comment on locking the pantry and fridge and do it, god i cant even make
a comment on safety he uses so much soap in one 5 min shower he must use an 1/8 cup but anyway he'll leave the lofa and a soap film i slipped once already but the cats drink there.
mom is constantly forgetting or mixing up something i say now. eventually i'll remember as soon as i wake that its pointless and i give up, sure a fake my smile but i've been doing that since i was 11 i am so close to picking up the razor, but cant wait for my art supplies to get here so i can draw my problems out, but i might be finding new a razor before they come.
depend how much miserable i get
i'm thinking of micro-braiding
Then mom gets up to go to bed and starts screaming holding her leg she pulls herself upstairs n I go smoke stupid woman didnt bother to sound as serious as it was she wouldn't of had to sit there the whole time I was out there she could have sounded more distressed like she was, I go up there and she's in near tears, her leg was blue and she couldn't stand then i told her to phone 911 but her stubborn ass said to call family so we wait and she hobbled in and there, after forever and it being 11 pm I went home they didnt give an waited till 1:30 to set her in room and give her a blood thinner the next day they shipped her to a big city hospital and then waited 5 more days to operate, when she came home she stood outside with walker in precarious way than the cat ran out and she went down the cement steps her thinners slow her healin and she is pretty sure she has a cracked socket not that they can do anything,
Finally couple weeks after she's back we take hers n mine cats over to be spayed well it turned out the one that almost died trapped in the couch had a bad uterus that coulda gone within weeks to few months n she woulda gone into sepsis n probably not made it,
But she still doesn't help the emptiness inside